Tonight was the Meet & Greet at school and I wasn’t prepared for the range of emotions I felt. I’ve spent this week at professional development to prepare for the 2013-1014 school year. There are so many things that are different for me this year, not the least of which is that I’ve moved from teaching 4th grade to 2nd. I wasn’t sure about the change at first, but now am thrilled and can’t wait to get started.
And that’s another thing…I’ve spent all week preparing for the school year and setting up all my fun Pinterest ideas, but I won’t be there to follow through. Not for the first 4 months at least. I will return after Christmas break when we will be finished with this round of major surgeries for Callie Anne. Monday will be the first 1st day of school that I’ve missed in 27 years! Thirteen years of elementary, junior high, and high school, 4 years of college, and 10 years of teaching. I love the first day of school and it seems strange to know that I won’t be there to greet my tiny little 2nd graders when they walk through the door.
I’m finding myself having to sort through my emotions (for like the zillionth time in the last year). I know that there are so many moms who would give anything to spend the first year of their child’s life at home with them. And I am absolutely not taking one minute of it for granted. I know without a doubt that I am exactly where I need to be and there will never be a day that I will regret the 13 months I’m getting to stay home with Callie Anne. However, I find myself longing to write lesson plans, do recess duty, and gripe about the lack of time to get it all done. The old saying is true…absence makes the heart grow fonder.
As always, things are working out just as they should. Before I even got pregnant with Callie Anne I was beginning to feel a little burnt out with teaching. Now that I’ve had some time away, I have a new fire lit under me and I know that when I do return, I’ll have some of my old enthusiasm for the profession. God certainly knows what He’s doing and when we let Him do it, things just have a way of working out.
So, while I got a little teary knowing that this week is coming to an end and I won’t be getting to spend every day with my friends at work, I know that I still get to wake up every day and cuddle with my little angel and I’m so thankful for that opportunity. You never know what life is going to hand you or how certain things that scare you at first turn out to be true blessings.
And as for blessings, I’m counting mine tonight.